Woke up by a bad dream
It's 2:30 a.m. and my mouth and throat is parched as the desert sand. I also was having this really bizarro dream. I was on some star trek ship, I am thinking voyager. Laying on the floor with a ray gun waiting for these glow in the dark spider things coming under the door and wall, through the hallway. I and some unknown person are blasting these things like crazy as they are running from one end to the other and some toward us. I keep hearing the sounds of galaga in my ears, until one gets to me, crawls on me burying into my armpit and bites me. I awoke with a shake and sandpaper for my mouth.
crap.
I have also calmed down from yesterday. The thing is, I in a crazy way, enjoyed the fact I could stay at work 10-11 hours dedicating the time to get stuff done. Yet on the other hand, feeling really guilty for it, because Kelli is having to deal with the kids being sick, in-laws, constant running, ect. all alone at home. I am still ready to be home and I know she is ready for me as well. She needs a break.
The in-law issue is a sensitive one. My brother married this girl, way to young. She is very selfish, world revolves around her, type. She seems to have no thoughts or feelings other than what is in it for her. The thing that also gripes me is my brother has changed so tremendously, I don't even know him anymore. He never calls unless he (mainly she) needs something. I have tried in the past to take him out for a brothers time out or just called him to check on him. The guy lives about 14 minutes away and unless I call him, I don't hear from him. With the exception of the need thing. Drives me nuts. I want to really dislike her but I can't just blame her for the situation because my brother is also to blame for not having the balls to stand up for himself. To make matters worse, they have 2 kids. I fear they will be as screwed up as my brother and I.
The other thing I was so pissed at hearing of them guilting my wife is the fact they do this to her when I am not there. I have told my brother not to call Kelli and guilt her while I am out of town. (my wife has a soft-heart, where she has a hard time to say 'no') They know this and that is why the call her. I get onto my wife for it, but it's also a trait that I love. Unfortunately there are many that uses that trait for their own selfish ploy's.
So I plan to call upon my brother sometime when I am back in town for some time out. I will just give him the opportunity to talk and unload (he probably wont) and then I will talk, giving him my piece of mind, again.
Nearly 3 a.m. I set the timer to wake me at 6:30 a.m. Guess I will be tired today. Better try to get some sleep.
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